No more false idols. Am I finally able to indefinitely assume the role of a thinking human on Earth? Would I chose death before before capitulating this newfound, self-evident conviction and world view?

Wisdom requires experience. Moral platitudes do not have the power to change, only to guide. There exist no shortcuts. There are no coverups, micro and macro behavior reveals all. Any introspective, thinking individual can capture enough data on you and bring scathing critique to the surface if they so chose.